dear online. diary,

yes its been a while. and so a little update, im currently unemployed. and no i didnt make it for nie. sobs. it is weird how you have everything plan out so perfectly in your tiny mind and thrn watch it come to a brutal crash in just a second. One thing i fear the most is rejection. and again it came slamming in my face. sheeeshhh. why cant they just give me a break. give me a chance larr.

but anyways, what is done is obviously done and can not be undone no matter how hard i pray that they sent me the rejection letter by mistake ( %&^*()&Y*H!!! )

there is nothing that i can do but to accept the fact and to MOOOOOOVEEE ON.

im glad i came terms with the rejection. i took it pretty hard honestly. maybe because everyone has been so positive about it and maybe because i wanted to prove to a few that i do have something in me. but im glad that the self pity phase is over (:

now im more driven to accompolish something for myself. be it something new or re applying to nie, im ready. im ready to battle. i have already packed my bag with the feel good armour and im setting off for the war.

ironically, im glad things turn out this way. life is abit more exciting this way dont you agree?

got tired of the crab claws clinging on my neck and so u i decided to straighten them out (:
hehe. the last time i got my crazy claws of hair straightened was a half a decade back right after i ended my o's. good grieve, time do pass by ever so quickly. btw, i need to thank my greatest sahabat AMIRAH. thank you beb. for enduring 4 painful hours in the salon while waiting for my hair to be tame and not even once complained abt it. seriously thank you thank you thanks!

and for your info, i snipped out the bangs my self. yes yes, kudos to me for such a brilliant job. the side part didnt do me any good as it highlighted my receding hairline ( boo hoo ) and thus i dared myself to chop it off!

and so,
how do i look? (:

anyways,
just a little update ( not like anyone care. hah )
i got HFMD la!

yes,
i got hand foot mouth disease
and no its not only applicable to kids.
got a good 10 days mc (OMG)

and im bored being a prisoner at home :(
boredom really force me to eat la! (no its not an excuse)
i find myself scrambling into the kitchen
to find something to eat every 5 mins!

thats pure madness !

-_-